"I dated a fatty, it's okay
and then she halved herself, like a cell
Asexual division
...waits for your response xD "
With that quote, i now dedicate this blog to a complete recollection of my beautiful relationship with my boyfriend. As a code name i shall call him......Trent. lol
Ok heres a little story. A few weeks ago school ended. A week before i whent ot the movies with a bunch of friends. My best friend sat right next to me and her boyfriend next to her. Well im sorry to say that it seemed during the movie somthing was going on between them that should not have been going on. It seemed that he had his hand in some place VERY inapropriat. I was very uncomfertable and even though i couldent prove what was going on I got up and pretended to go to the bathroom. Instead i whent home. Whn the movie was over my friend called my house to ask why i whent home. I told her honostly with out accusing her what i thought was going on. She denied it....but in a way that made me not so sure. I told her that i would need to think intill monday.
Monday came. I was still very confused and upset so i dident go talk to her. None of my friends talked to me all day. The next day i was told i was a traitor and that i was passing a rumor around the school about my best friend and her boyfriend. It wasent true, i had not even spoken to any one at all realy scince the movie. After school i whent home and the phone rang. My friend Jessica was on the other line she told me mokingly that my best friend and her boyfriend had broken up over a rumor i had started then called me a few bad names and hung up. I was very upset even though i knew i hadent done anything. I was very hurt and dident understand why all my friends would treat me like this.
Another friend called ....then another. I was ...torn apart by the time they where done. The next day i go to school.....and they tell me it was all a joke, just to punish me. Every thing got worse from there.........
Its a few weeks after now and my best friend just IM ed me. This is a bit of what she said.
Me:old you i wasent angry and im not, i am moving to New york end of summer. All i whanted was to know why all of that was done and why we had our friendship thrown away I was willing to work things out, i was devistated and made my slef absolutly sick over what was happening, i dident eat or sleep and i finaly had to just let things go. Dont feel to bad, broken hearts heal, im glad for the time that we where friends that we where as good as friends as we where. Goodbye my sista from another mista....ill miss you, im glad i can finaly say what i have to to just let this whole thing go. I loved you like a sister and i hope for a time....you did to.
Meg:ust to let u know the whole guilt trip thing isn't
Me:ts not a guilt trip its a goodbye
Meg: so that's what u call it
Me: a honest sincere goodbye to a friend regarldess of things that have happened
Meoodbye meaghan
Meg: c ya
Me: sorry....no u whont
Meg: not what i ment
Megbeing all smart and cocky are we
Me: goodluck any way i hope you have a great life, would you knock it off im not being smart and cocky . I can see that mabe you do whant me anrgry well it can be arranged. you should be more carefull on IM you can not hear the tone of some ones vioce so dont be so quick to judge there meaning or the feelings behind them
ME: if you dont have anything important or nice to say i realy dont whant to dig this situation up..so lets just let it go and go on with our seperate lives ok??
Me: the past is the past
Me lets leave it there
Meg: have to go run i have been ever dday and swimmin lost 30 pounds already latter
Thats all....she just dropped off and im totaaly cluless. I finaly started feeling better about the whole thing when she does this and makes it worse again. Well I have to go think.....
Pengrace
